The wreath. . . the pumpkins and my dirty laundry

I finally got around to putting up a wreath on my door and I have some pumpkins setting out there too.  Its such a nice feeling to have a wreath,  I feel like one of those organized people ;)  and its about time too.

I have been caught up in one of the crazy whirlwinds,  you know, like have you ever heard the expression. . "when it rains it pours"  Me and my family have been having a crazy time.  I'm not sure if I should put the long or short version up here,  since I have a readership of one and its my sister.  Plus I already told her the everything on the phone everyday.   I'll just put the short version of it I guess,  for little sisters sake. 

In the beginning of September I started hemorrhaging and ended up in the emergency room and in surgery,  I spent an entire week thinking I had cancer and feeling like I wouldn't be around to raise my children.  I got test results back and was cancer free (for baby boys 1st birthday)  a pretty good gift I think!  Then as I was recovering I had this run in with a crazy person I would rather not put details about.  I had whiplash from an almost accident (thankfully not an actual accident) My husbands grandfather passed away,  and I caught what seems like whooping cough but is not (Ive been tested and I'm off the hook for that one)  however I have been sick for 35 days and I still cough until I . . . well you can guess what I do, as long as you don't guess poop.  Come on people have some class.  Ill just write it,  I puke.  Its the worst.  but now that I see that it fits into a snug little paragraph it doesn't seem to be quite so bad,  but this is the short version,  I could go on,  but really I'm just not going to.  I'm so ready to move on.  My mother is the one who saved my and drove me as i passed out to the ER>  I couldn't see at the time but it felt like I was being driven to kadlec by Vin diesel.  And my mother is also the one who watched my children along with friends and family.  and my home teachers mowed my lawn,  oh and my DAD mowed my lawn. . .  WITH A CENTRAL LINE IN HIS HEART.  The whole thing has been so humbling having everyone do all the things I should be doing.  I used to feel like crap because I would work so hard and get nothing done.  now that I actually can't do ANYTHING I see that I did a lot before.  I feel this overwhelming feeling of gratitude mixed with shame for all the charity that has been offered to me.   Its embarrassing to me,  I know that I shouldn't be,  but truly it is.  I have had my house cleaned, dinner brought in,  kids sleep over/taken to school for me, gardening help, yard mowed, giant bowl of muffins (you know who you are) and I just can't even tell you kindness I have received. 

Sorry no pictures of bleeding to death or people mowing my lawn for me.  It would be pretty classy if I did have that.  If someone else tries to mow my lawn again I will definitely snap a photo of that!

Heres the wreath!